Sunday, 5 April 2015
It's been a while since my last proper post, and I was pretty low in my emaan at that point, just reading through a bit of it now is quite shocking how low I actually was. Alhamdulillah even though my emaan is not as high as I would like it to be, I'm not feeling the way I was back then. Alhamdulillah I am proud to be a muslim and I pray that Allah continuously guides me and my family upon the straight path, ameen. I really should be making more time for my deen, I find it hard to balance everything in my life, and this darn internet can be a big distraction :/ I was speaking to my eldest daughter just yesterday about how in the first year or so of my becoming a muslim I would read so much, that was my nightly routine, but then we got a computer, hooked up to the internet and slowly slowly it took me away from reading my books. I suppose it comes down to disciplining yourself, but it's not always easy. So that's something I would like to start implementing again, even if I just start with switching the computer off for one night and reading, hopefully that will help my motivation to grow insha Allah, I need it for my sake & my kids.