Sunday, 10 January 2016

A talk to the teenagers - audio

Last one for tonight, I think I have listened to this one before from Abu Khadeejah and it was really good and gave me such an emaan boost, insha Allah I will listen to it again tomorrow hopefully, goodnight, salam alaykum.

Link to audio - Ten pieces of advice to muslim teenagers

Ten pieces of advice to muslim teenagers - audio

Link - Twelve steps in cultivating our children

Salam alaykum,

I haven't posted anything for so long on here, have had many things going on, had a baby girl Allahumma baarik laha, so have been pretty busy :) I wanted to share a very beneficial article I was just reading on cultivating chidren, what let me to read this article tonight was a search on raising teenage children, I have two teenagers alhamdulillah and believe me it is hard work!! I sometimes find it quite challenging with my son who is 13, there was a point last summer where he was going out practically every day with a couple of close friends of his, mainly to play football, but over those 4 or so weeks he really changed, from his speech to his attitude, it might not have all been down to going out, his age also maybe playing a part but it was quite a sudden change, and also I find that he's not very close to his deen as he was, he learns qur'an in the moque in the afternoons and complains about going often.  Insha Allah I've decided to start reading through 'The path to guidance' by Ibn Al Qayyim (Rahimahullah) with him from tomorrow, and maybe a page a day of the translation of the Qur'an with hope that it will boost his (and mine!) emaan up a notch. May Allah guide us and our children, ameen.

Sunday, 5 April 2015

My current emaan

Assalamu' alaykum,

It's been a while since my last proper post, and I was pretty low in my emaan at that point, just reading through a bit of it now is quite shocking how low I actually was. Alhamdulillah even though my emaan is not as high as I would like it to be, I'm not feeling the way I was back then. Alhamdulillah I am proud to be a muslim and I pray that Allah continuously guides me and my family upon the straight path, ameen. I really should be making more time for my deen, I find it hard to balance everything in my life, and this darn internet can be a big distraction :/ I was speaking to my eldest daughter just yesterday about how in the first year or so of my becoming a muslim I would read so much, that was my nightly routine, but then we got a computer, hooked up to the internet and slowly slowly it took me away from reading my books. I suppose it comes down to disciplining yourself, but it's not always easy. So that's something I would like to start implementing again, even if I just start with switching the computer off for one night and reading, hopefully that will help my motivation to grow insha Allah, I need it for my sake & my kids.

Condemnation of the terrorist attacks in Kenya

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

Assalamu alaykum...

Just another 'rare' update! lol.. Im sorry I leave it long between posting, but so much going on each day, its often the last thing on my mind to do.

Hope your all enjoying Ramadan, Im quite sad tbh that I havent made enough effort this year, probably worse than last year, my eemaan is not much better. Although I did get re-married to my childrens father a few months back, so in a way that probably is a help.  I think it's worse when your by yourself, your more likely to fall into undesirable things, than if you have a partner.

Don't really have alot else to update you with, just still need to push myself harder, as I am really slacking and no excuse for it really.

Insha Allaah will be a positive outcome. x

Btw...if you haven't already, please pop by my photography blog 'Capturing the Beauty', think the link is on this page or my profile, thanks! :)

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

At my lowest point........

Salam alaykum,

................well it sure has been a while since I've wrote anything on here, well that's me all over....inconsistent really should be my middle name! 

I'm sure the last time I wrote, I mentioned how low my eeman was, well it still is, my enthusiasm and motivation has seriously plummeted, and I know if I want to become motivated again I have to put in some the qur'an/an islamic book or listen to a lecture, but without enthusiasm and motivation I'm finding it pretty hard to do.

I've suprised myself recently with the way I see certain things, I wont go too much into this as tbh I'm not looking to get into any kind of debate about a particular subject. let's just say things that I would have been really strict about in the years that I've been a muslim, now don't seem as bad, and i've found myself taking more notice of other fatwas and opinions regarding these things, can be pretty confusing.

I've also found myself reflecting alot about my life, and don't get me wrong I'm so grateful to Allaah for guiding me back to Islam and in my heart I do believe that Islam is the truth, but I feel that happiness and contentment is somewhat missing, I wonder to myself is this because I'm low in my eemaan, and I feel I'm being pulled in all directions, there's parts of me trying to hold onto my deen and knowing it's the truth not wanting to let it go, then because of my weakness, I find myself being pulled to the dunya, and I know myself that if I were living the life I was living before I wouldn't be completely happy, I just feel stuck in a way, I'm trying hard to explain exactly how I feel inside, I don't want to lose Islam but feel isolated, and yes I could go and mix more with the sisters but don't really feel like it, and with the big focus on Islam, sometimes going out and displaying your islamic identity just puts you in the spotlight, and have people reacting to you because of this, alhamdulillah I don't get alot of problems, but sometimes just takes it's toll always being the one ppl stare at or judge when they don't even know you.

I think I really needed to let this all out, and I know I need to take some serious action if I want to save my deen, this has gone on for too long now, but it seems all of a sudden I've dipped even further and that's the scary part, I don't want it to get to the point where I'm not covering or praying, authu billaah, but I'm just stuck in a rut subhanAllaah, it sounds crazy but I've conjured up thoughts in my head about living my life with Islam as my belief but without so many restrictions and realistically I know this cannot work, your lifestyle would just be contradicting your belief, because if you believe properly then you would try your best to wear hijab, pray 5 times etc....
I ask Allah to keep us all guided and let jannah be our final abode, ameen.