Sunday, 5 April 2015

My current emaan

Assalamu' alaykum,

It's been a while since my last proper post, and I was pretty low in my emaan at that point, just reading through a bit of it now is quite shocking how low I actually was. Alhamdulillah even though my emaan is not as high as I would like it to be, I'm not feeling the way I was back then. Alhamdulillah I am proud to be a muslim and I pray that Allah continuously guides me and my family upon the straight path, ameen. I really should be making more time for my deen, I find it hard to balance everything in my life, and this darn internet can be a big distraction :/ I was speaking to my eldest daughter just yesterday about how in the first year or so of my becoming a muslim I would read so much, that was my nightly routine, but then we got a computer, hooked up to the internet and slowly slowly it took me away from reading my books. I suppose it comes down to disciplining yourself, but it's not always easy. So that's something I would like to start implementing again, even if I just start with switching the computer off for one night and reading, hopefully that will help my motivation to grow insha Allah, I need it for my sake & my kids.

Condemnation of the terrorist attacks in Kenya

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

Assalamu alaykum...

Just another 'rare' update! lol.. Im sorry I leave it long between posting, but so much going on each day, its often the last thing on my mind to do.

Hope your all enjoying Ramadan, Im quite sad tbh that I havent made enough effort this year, probably worse than last year, my eemaan is not much better. Although I did get re-married to my childrens father a few months back, so in a way that probably is a help.  I think it's worse when your by yourself, your more likely to fall into undesirable things, than if you have a partner.

Don't really have alot else to update you with, just still need to push myself harder, as I am really slacking and no excuse for it really.

Insha Allaah will be a positive outcome. x

Btw...if you haven't already, please pop by my photography blog 'Capturing the Beauty', think the link is on this page or my profile, thanks! :)

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

At my lowest point........

Salam alaykum,

................well it sure has been a while since I've wrote anything on here, well that's me all over....inconsistent really should be my middle name! 

I'm sure the last time I wrote, I mentioned how low my eeman was, well it still is, my enthusiasm and motivation has seriously plummeted, and I know if I want to become motivated again I have to put in some the qur'an/an islamic book or listen to a lecture, but without enthusiasm and motivation I'm finding it pretty hard to do.

I've suprised myself recently with the way I see certain things, I wont go too much into this as tbh I'm not looking to get into any kind of debate about a particular subject. let's just say things that I would have been really strict about in the years that I've been a muslim, now don't seem as bad, and i've found myself taking more notice of other fatwas and opinions regarding these things, can be pretty confusing.

I've also found myself reflecting alot about my life, and don't get me wrong I'm so grateful to Allaah for guiding me back to Islam and in my heart I do believe that Islam is the truth, but I feel that happiness and contentment is somewhat missing, I wonder to myself is this because I'm low in my eemaan, and I feel I'm being pulled in all directions, there's parts of me trying to hold onto my deen and knowing it's the truth not wanting to let it go, then because of my weakness, I find myself being pulled to the dunya, and I know myself that if I were living the life I was living before I wouldn't be completely happy, I just feel stuck in a way, I'm trying hard to explain exactly how I feel inside, I don't want to lose Islam but feel isolated, and yes I could go and mix more with the sisters but don't really feel like it, and with the big focus on Islam, sometimes going out and displaying your islamic identity just puts you in the spotlight, and have people reacting to you because of this, alhamdulillah I don't get alot of problems, but sometimes just takes it's toll always being the one ppl stare at or judge when they don't even know you.

I think I really needed to let this all out, and I know I need to take some serious action if I want to save my deen, this has gone on for too long now, but it seems all of a sudden I've dipped even further and that's the scary part, I don't want it to get to the point where I'm not covering or praying, authu billaah, but I'm just stuck in a rut subhanAllaah, it sounds crazy but I've conjured up thoughts in my head about living my life with Islam as my belief but without so many restrictions and realistically I know this cannot work, your lifestyle would just be contradicting your belief, because if you believe properly then you would try your best to wear hijab, pray 5 times etc....
I ask Allah to keep us all guided and let jannah be our final abode, ameen.

Sunday, 10 January 2010

The Sitting of the Bride and Groom Among the Women is Detested

Shaikh Abdul-Aziz bin Baz says:

''Among the detested things which the people have innovated in these times is placing the bride on a throne among the women, and sitting her husband next to her in the presence of unveiled women who are revealing their beauty. This may also occur within the presence of other male members of his family.

For those possessing an unimpaired innate character, a religious sense of self respect, the great corruption entailed by this action and the opportunity which it gives to unrelated men is well known.

That is, they see alluring, revealingly-dressed women, and the evil consequences which result from it. Therefore, it must be prohibited and completely eradicated due to the Fitnah which it causes to safeguard womens gatherings from that which contradicts the pure Islamic Law.

I advise all of my Muslim brothers to fear Allaah, to adhere to His Law in all matters, and to beware of all that Allaah has forbidden to them, to abstain from the causes of evil and corruption in weddings and in other matters, seeking the Pleasure of Allaah, Most Glorified, Most High, and avoiding those things which cause His Anger and His Punishment.

Shaykh `Abdul-`Azeez Bin Baz

Fatawa Islamiyah Vol. 5 Page 321

Friday, 25 December 2009

Birmingham Winter Conference Timetable


National Winter Conference in Birmingham 2009



12pm Sermon, "Following knowledge with Actions" by Abu Hakeem or Abu Khadeejah
4pm "O Youth, Marry whoever pleases you of Women!" by Abu Khadeejah
7pm "The Path of the Righteous" by Shaikh Abdullaah al-Bukhaaree
9pm "The Station of the Sunnah of the Prophet in Islaam" by Abu Idrees Muhammad


12.30pm "The Characteristics of the Dajjaal (the Anti-Christ) P1" by Abu Iyaad Amjad
2.30pm "Diseases of the Hearts and it's Cure" by by Abu Idrees Muhammad
4pm Lecture Live Tele-Link With Ash-Shaykh Ubaid al-Jaabiree
7pm "The way of the Salaf in Maintaining Strength of Imaan" P1 by Abu Hakeem Bilal Davis
9pm "Rulings Connected to Engagement and Looking before Marriage" by Abu Khadeejah


12.30pm "Imaan and Action" (Somali Language ONLY) by Abu Suhaib
2pm "The Characteristics of the Dajjaal (the Anti-Christ) P2" by Abu Iyaad Amjad
4pm Live Tele-Link Shaykh Rabee' ibn Haadee al-Madkhali: "Fear Allaah and be truthful"
7pm "The way of the Salaf in Maintaining Strength of Imaan" P2 by Abu Hakeem Bilal Davis
8.30pm Final advices and end by Abu Hakeem, Abu Iyaad, Abu Khadeejah, Abu Idrees.


Asslaamu alaykum, we warmly welcome you to this conference. Please note: No vendors or stalls are allowed on the street or in the vicinity of the Masjid without authorization. The Police have stated that they will take action at their discretion.

STRICTLY no illegal parking or obstruction of the street facing the Masjid. Please park in the car-park allocated.Excellent manners should be employed at all times with other conference attendees, neighbours, members of the public and the local community - let us set a noble example in the call to Allaah.

The 'Salafi Bookstore' is located at 472 Coventry Rd, directly parallel to the Masjid, it will be open from 10am till 10pm.

Sisters are very welcome to shop anytime.

Since this conference is free for all, you should know that much expense is incurred in organizing our da'wah activities.

We also ask that you make each other welcome and establish the ties of brotherhood (and sisterhood) throughout the conference.

Conferences are remembered both for the knowledge disseminated and the love and brotherhood established within them.

Please prepare yourselves for unavoidable changes in the program!


To listen on paltalk - Religion & Spirituality-Islam-Salafi Publications Live

Thursday, 10 December 2009